Thursday, November 18, 2010

The Daily Lust

Hello, I need you..

Kate Spade, Casie

Thursday, November 11, 2010

7 Things I've Been Doing

I know, I know... I've been terrible about keeping this blog updated with fascinating material.

So, in order to get back on track, I need to do some updating. What have I been doing? Take a look:

1. Working:

My job is going pretty well. It's incredibly nice to have some security these days! Basically, I'm the executive assistant to everyone in my office. Sure, my job is much more than "can I get you some coffee?" but I'm essentially the go-to person for any needs in my office, in addition to my other duties. My company produces and sells equipment for audio production (recording studios) and broadcast (television studios) companies. It's a pretty cool company and I'm really starting to get some close contacts within the industry that could end up being helpful in transitioning into something more in line with my career path. Sometimes, though, I feel like I'm getting so far away from a "career", that it will be too hard to go back. But, I have to remind myself that I'm still young and there's no wrong way to start a career. It certainly couldn't hurt to have more money though!

2. Gettin' Skinny

In approximately seven months, I'll be boarding a gigantic cruise ship for a week-long vacation in the Caribbean. Every 5 years, my family takes a vacation to celebrate the marriage of my grandparents and the wonderful family they formed from that bond. And, each time before, I have vowed to drop some weight and feel comfortable in my body while on that very anticipated vacation. Each time, I have failed. Until this year. I believe I've made progress with myself (mentally) and have done what needs to be done to prepare for this challenge. While I have already lost a bit of weight since the beginning of 2010, I'm working on the final push toward my goal. I am happy to report that I have gone to the gym (or have done some sort of exercise) regularly since I began this uphill climb. This includes cardio, group exercise classes, and Exercise TV On Demand (Greatest thing ever, it's free.. look it up. Amazing!) and I have the sore body to prove it! More importantly, for the first time (in like, ever) my body fat percentage is in the "healthy" range. I don't remember a time where I did a body fat percentage calculator that didn't put me in the "overweight" category. Now, I fall into "normal". Healthy is the ultimate goal here; a bikini bod is just the icing (okay, fat free cool whip) ;)

3. Cooking

It's no secret that I find comfort in the kitchen. As a "baker", traditionally, my mind naturally wonders toward recipes of the sweeter nature. Since that can be bad news for the diet tribe, I've had to take charge of my recipes and ensure they pack the nutrients my body needs. I've made an effort to include lean meats, high fiber, and low carbohydrates in the meals I make. One of my favorite things though, is that Craig and I cook together. We're learning how to eat better while still maintaining the fun of preparing a meal and the reward of something flavorful and healthy. In the past month, we've cranked out things like Turkey Pumpkin Chili, Lemon Talapia Steamers, Honey Glazed Pork Chops, among others.

4. Writing

Because my job offers no sort of creative outlet, I've found myself in a creative deficiency. That, coupled with money problems, I've decided to start freelance writing. I'm starting slow, maybe one to two articles a month, dealing most likely with women's issues. It's a way I can express myself creatively and begin to develop an in-depth portfolio of published works. Stay tuned on this one, I'll be updating you on where you can see some VA originals in the coming weeks!

5. Boyfriending

Craig, Craig.. what can I say about Craig? I'd be lying if I said I didn't spend most of my time with this guy. Craig is also working with me on the "gettin' skinny" program, so we've been spending a lot of time at the gym. Our relationship has gotten better, stronger even, and we're finding it easier to navigate the "relationship maze" merging our individuality with togetherness and keeping both of us happy. I find myself wondering what I could have possibly done to deserve him, but I'm learning to just live my life and enjoy having him in it.

6. Money Hoarding

Seems like there is never enough money. I know I have survived on far less than I have right now, but it just feels like each and every month, I'm scraping the bottom of the barrel. This is especially disheartening because I've had to sacrifice attending some key events in my friend's lives (like bachelorette weekends, birthday parties, etc.) due to financial constraints. I do understand that it might not always be that way, but it's difficult to tell people I can't participate in their joys and successes because of my financial situation. Because of this (and with a few important events coming up) I have been money hoarding. I've pinched every penny, tucked away every dollar. I only shop for things that I absolutely need and I have a very careful budget about food. It's not easy, and it's definitely not fun, but it's what I have to do to survive. Financial freedom is something I definitely do not have at the moment.

7. Living

So basically, it's work, a little play, and never enough sleep. My tiny studio apartment is beginning to feel more and more like home and settling in has been easier than I could have imagined. I'm sure one day, when I have a multiple bedroom home, complete with a washer and dryer, I'll think back on my tiny studio in Manhattan with fondness and humor. It may be small, but it's what I've got and I'm loving what I've got.

What's next?

With the holidays coming up, I'll be making a few trips back to North Carolina to visit with my family and friends.. super excited for this!

There you have it: 7 things I've been "up to". Most importantly, I'm happy. I'm making a life for myself in the city and I'm becoming more comfortable with who I am each and every day. The bridge between small-town girl and city woman is getting smaller with each passing moment. Two different worlds, both belonging to me!

Monday, November 8, 2010

My insatiable desire to bake delicious things interferes with my insatiable desire to be skinny this summer.

Friday, November 5, 2010


Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Thinking about home..

Tonight, I am missing home. I don't think it's home as in the place, but more of the feeling of home. The comfort of being near people that I love is what I am missing.

When I moved to New York, I quickly found a niche of people (mostly North Carolinians) that became my group of friends. In the 2+ years I've been here, every single one of those individuals has moved away. It's scary to be alone in this city and it hurts to think about how far away every one I love really is.

When I think about missing home, I think about the home I knew about two and a half years ago. I had family, I had friends, and they were all right there. Though I didn't see each and every one of them all the time, the fact that they were there was a comfort. I have no comfort of home here.

Sometimes I think back on my reasonings for moving here. What was I really looking for? The obvious answer is that I came to work, to make a career for myself, but as that is now, I'm not really finding myself on a path to a career. Did I move for independence? Possibly, and I have certainly found that here, but I was pretty independent before as well. A lot of people think I moved to run away from my problems. I guess in a way, that is true too. Moving here helped me to overcome an extreme emotional low point in my life.

When people ask me why I moved away, I don't really have an answer for them. I just shrug my shoulders and say, "I just did." Most of the time, I am happy with my decision to move away from home.

But, on nights like this when I feel alone, I wish for a time when the comforts of home could coincide with my life as it is now. And, I wonder if it will ever happen.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Halloween 2010

Halloween 2010
(L to R: Vampire, Pirate, Cowboy, Badminton Champ 1 and 2, Funky Disco Queen, Rainbow Brite, and Ace Ventura: Pet Detective)