Sometimes it's quiet in the city - eerily quiet. It's like the city falls into a meditation, the parts move as usual, just a gentle hum coming from the wind moving through the gridded streets. On nights like this, I feel like being still as well. If I could master the skill of meditation, I would love to make a habit of it, but I just can't seem to ever get my mind to be still. I am always buzzing about something, and my thoughts zip back and forth from one thing to another. Learning to quiet my thoughts would probably allow me to fully relax. Goal: learn beginners meditation practices.
This past weekend, I had a wonderful weekend in Washington DC with my friend, Sarah. It was very convenient to take the bus down to DC - just 35 bucks and 4 hours. Perfect for a weekend trip. I really liked DC, which was odd, because when I used to go in high school, I didn't really see Washington as a place where I could actually live - just really a place to visit. But now, I'm feeling a bit of a pull from DC, maybe I'll consider moving there if New York doesn't live up to my expectations. Though, it would require quite a few more visits to make an ultimate decision. I definitely can't rush into another decision to move to another state - if I move away from New York, it will be calculated and planned - and I will be absolutely sure it's what would be best for me before taking any action. After all, moving isn't easy, and I certainly know that going to a different state doesn't solve your problems... Hm, if I did move, would I then have to change the name of my blog? (VA in DC???) Eh, that's a decision for a way later date.
I have an "interview" tomorrow - I use the word, "interview", lightly, because it's more of a meeting than an interview. I went to an Elon networking event on Tuesday orchestrated by the career services department of the University. There, I met a couple of people that may have opportunities for me. Tomorrow, I'm meeting with a 2006 graduate who works at a recruiting agency. If something comes from this meeting, I would be able to get out of my current job (which is a bit of a toxic situation on its own). I'm staying realistic though, and not getting my hopes up in case nothing comes from it - because I know from personal experience that even recruiters can fall through. I'll keep you posted on how the meeting goes.
While we're on the subject, is it strange that I am worried about having to tell my current bosses that I would no longer be working with them? (This is going along the lines of getting a new job with this recruiter) - - - -
I know I can answer my own question - I shouldn't feel bad about it - I mean, those women are awful! I was told in the first week that I would not be given any sort of references by them, so why should I be concerned that they would be upset by me leaving??? I am doing a horrible job with my resolutions.
I need to have MY best interests at heart - I need to have MY best interests at heart - I need to have MY best interests at heart.
I'm going to have to repeat this to myself over and over until it becomes habit.
See? My mind is never quiet.